Things I still need to work on: EXERCISE, eating better yet, losing some weight (don't expect to hear a lot about this though as I'm more than just a number on the scale and some of the people who post obsessively abt weight and looks - not on my f-list, I won't keep ppl like that on my f-list and have dropped some in the past already, I just want to serve them a nice hot cup of Diet Shutthefuckup), making sure I get good health care (I tend to put this off), and enjoying life without feeling like I need to rush from one thing to the other or spend gobs of money. Learning to relax. I feel like if I take care of some of the weight and health issues, relaxation is more likely to come. Not in the sense that WHOOHOO I LOST WEIGHT, NOW I CAN FINALLY RELAX! I know from past wt loss that doesn't work - you get skinny and everything is basically the same except you're skinny and maybe some assy people hit on you more, which is a big DO NOT WANT for me. If you're not gonna hit on or care about Chubby Me, I don't want your attention when I'm Skinny Me either, and you can just go die and reduce the world surplus asshole supply, SRSLY I hate you. But (getting back to the subject) I do want to get myself in balance and kind of tuned up. I would like to study yoga with Lesley who teaches it now and I don't feel like I can do stuff like that till I get myself a little better adjusted and my mind open and ready to receive.
On a LOL note, I discovered this morning that I actually lost a pound since last week, whereas I'd expected to have put on about 5-10 from the Great Dayton Pizza and Beer Weekend plus pig roast plus the free hotel breakfast which is like 12 kinds of bread products I don't normally eat but which I ate because (a) it was free, (b) it absorbs beer and (c) I like cereal and waffles once in a while. I guess God decided to be kind to me in between diverting the predicted 70-mile-an-hour hailstorm from the Polish Picnic Grounds and making sure the cops didn't come out while the parking lot crew were posing for pictures on the cop car hood.
I need a personal trainer or better yet a life coach. I might get a trainer down the line but for now I've decided to be my own life coach. That sounds kinda fun actually and will save me money. I'm sure there's a self-help book somewhere called "Be Your Own Life Coach". For now I'll just stick with "Changing for Good" which is written in annoying self-help-ese but does have some nuggets in there.